Day 354. Empathy gone wrong

   Today was one of those days when you empathized with the weather more than you had planned to. You let the gloomy clouds and the heavy rain get to you, so you were cranky and bored all day and you knew nothing you do could change that. 

   You wish things could be different and you could be like other people who just see rain as mere water coming from the sky and gloomy clouds as random weather. Today you wish that more than ever. You know everything is an illusion and it's all in your head as much as you know you can't really control it. You tried it before and it was always more powerful than you. 

   It is what it is. So maybe the only option available in this case is finding something that would turn your day upside down. A reason to smile, a reason to fall in love with today:) Guess what, when you want it hard enough, that reason reveals to you and even if outside it's pouring rain the sun inside will keep shining:) At least that's what happened to me, even if it was just a little movie which totally spoke to me. It was enough to make me go to bed full of hope like any other day.

Day 302. Stuck... or not

   We all have our addictions. We're so used to them that they become part of who we are and we don't even think if they're good or bad for us. We just have them cos they make our life prettier... for some reason. 

   There comes a moment in our life when we somehow discover that some of those addictions are actually bad for our existence. And we realize that we have to, you know, say our goodbyes and move on without them. But we're not mentally prepared to "break up" with them all of a sudden. Nobody expects that, anyway. 

   The thing is that after a while of not living with those bad addictions we have a moment of enlightenment. The moment when we realize that we can live without them just as well, that we don't really need to spend our money or time on them and that our life can be just as pretty as it used to. 

   So that's the moment when we wake up from our oblivion and start seeing us for who we really are: strong and powerful human beings who can live life without being addicted to something. 

   Sure, we'll miss the bittersweet feeling of eating the forbidden fruit, but we all know we're better off without it. So put on your best smile and move along:)

Day 223. Young and blooming

    Today while watching students pass by on the street as I was riding the bus home I remembered how I used to be when I was like them and I smiled. 

   It's so interesting to see how much we evolve in just a couple of years after we graduate... even if we keep our inner child with us. In the end, I think it evolves with us, too. 

   When we're teenagers and students we think we control the world, that we can change it and bend it the way we want so that we always end up being happy. We feel so powerful and willing to do so many things and that's exactly when we should do them. Because later on, as we start working and have serious thoughts about settling down we realize it has always been the reverse. The world is controlling us and WE are the ones who have to bend in order to be accepted in the society we live in. We realize that many times our choices as teens were the wrong ones, but we can still make it if we learn to be flexible. Attending that university could be a wrong choice because you might not find a workplace in that field quickly but if you're willing to learn something else, you will succeed. Or maybe you'll want a job in that field so hard that you'll get it no matter how much you'll have to fight for it. 

   In the end I think we should always be young and blooming in our thoughts, feel able and willing to change the world. Otherwise we'd only feel like slaves who work for others not for ourselves. And maybe we can control the world. Maybe not the whole world, but a small part for sure. And that's enough if it helps us be happy:)

Day 183. Like a woman

   Today, for the first time in my life I really felt like a woman. I was no longer a teenager or a student daydreaming about the perfect job. It was the first time really celebrating myself and not just my mother:)

   Working changes people, even though not completely. It can lead you through restless seas and it can even drive you nuts when you see you work for a month and your whole salary goes to paying taxes, invoices and things like those. But in the end you're satisfied that last month you had the money to buy yourself something that will last for a decade:) So it's all worth it.

   Even though feeling like a woman makes you feel powerful, sometimes being one is like being a girl in disguise:) The age and the fact you're working or maybe just wearing a special dress can tell them things are different now. In fact, we're all still in need of affection and protection. That's why we like flowers, guys. Because we bond with them. They're just like us, fragile and beautiful and needing to being taken care of:) You'll never understand this, but I wish you'd just go on trusting our instincts and still bring us flowers every 8th of March:) Because that's how we know you're trying to bond with us too, and what can be cuter than some puppy eyes asking you "Did I buy the right flowers?":)

Day 126. Powerful

   Today I let myself go with the flow. I met my best friend and we indulged ourselves while doing what girls know to do best: shopping:) I bought some new jeans, a coffee Yves Rocher shower cream (yum!) and some other stuff, I visited an amaaaazing home decoration store (Home etcetera - Chic Ville - photos below) and I went home more powerful than ever because I had the money to buy some things for myself, some things that will remind me how pretty and powerful I am. 

   Later on I talked to a dear friend who made me remember how important it is to be kind to others:  "Be good. if you can't be good, be careful." he said using a quote from "Naked" (1993), the movie. It's kindness what people need. Not rudeness. Not madness. But kindness. Let's be kind to the others around us and if not that, at least not spread the bad energy around us. Life's tough either way.

 

[Photos from the internet because I thought it wouldn't have been nice of me to start taking photos randomly in their store. Also, sorry, I don't know the author.]