Sunshine, rainbows and butterflies

Dear diary,

   We're surrounded by negativity every day. Me, more than others. And I feel the need to actively push it away and surround myself with positivity instead. So that's why I love a good sunny day, a rainbow after a summery storm or a colorful place when I see it. I breathe art, I live through it and it's the most important thing that keeps me going. So no, dear teacher from Psychology University, I believe you're not right in saying weather doesn't influence us and that it's all in our head and our own interpretation. I am very much influenced by it and a ray of sunshine after a whole cloudy day can make my day, a colorful notebook or that perfect green dress that I saw behind a window do change my day in so many ways I can't even tell you. I don't know how it happens, but I just know it does. How else would you explain color therapy or music therapy working with the same effects as your cognitive therapy on patients all over the world? 

   So, dear diary, I want to choose what I believe in and I wanna have MY OWN religion. I do appreciate people's opinions and some of them are applicable but I will go on as a dreamer and a beautiful artist who loves her own little bubble and who is thrilled every time she sees other artists like her out there. I'm not alone and I feel so good to know there are others like me in the midst of all these realistic people who know what I should do to be happy. Nope, they don't. They know what would make THEM happy, but we're so different so why not accept our differences and celebrate them supporting each other every time we're happy about something? :) In the end, feeling understood and valued is what we all need to be really happy.

Feeling wise,

D.

Holy(day)

Dear diary,

   Exams finally passed and after 2 months of studying and losing contact to all people around me, everything's back on track: I took the exam I was worried about and I'm still waiting for the results on the other one, but I have a good feeling. 

   So guess what: I'm gonna work in the same kindergarten one more yeaaaar! I'm so happy! I love seeing the kids grow and evolve alongside with me and I can't wait to read them the books I bought for them from Vatra Dornei! 

   Life's good. Really good. And I feel so blessed for having everything I want and need. So many things have changed for the better:) Life's exciting and full of new things! 

   So now I'm gonna catch up with my friends, go out for photos, read wonderful books, watch my TV shows and enjoy the awesome things summer has still prepared for me! It's finally a holiday!

In love with life,

D.

Of chasing and reaching heaven

Dear diary,

   I wish everyone could feel what I feel right now... what I've been feeling for the past week and a half. I didn't write anything for a long time because I didn't find the right words to express it. It's still hard. I don't know many things, but what I do know is that right now I'm in heaven. With Iulia and nine kids, but I feel like I'm all by myself. And that's one of the few reasons why I miss my dear city and everything it contains. Nevertheless, it's the kind of heaven a nature lover understands and longs for. A mountain kind of lover. 

   ... Of dark fir tree tops and fog and rays of sunshine when you least expect. 

   ... Of a sea of daisies and a warm sun touching me on my fingers while I write this. 

  ... Of crickets and hay, of the old kind of summer we all miss. Deep in the heart of nature, surrounded only by warm, simple people, their cows and horses and their stories of a lifetime spent here. 

   ... Of a welcoming park and its delicious ice cream, of a gorgeous little corner library with the most amazing stories and illustrations. 

   ... Of fear and letting go of it and finally enjoying life. 

   ... Of the pain of continually studying and then finding more and more reasons why you have to keep going. 

   ... Of falling in love with children, their innocence and their creativity, their never ending affection and being a teacher for the first time in a camp far away from home. 

   ... Of daily new experiences and taking each day as it comes. 

   ... Of fulfilling dreams and making new ones. 

   ... Of feeling blessed and accepting everything that happens to you. 

   ... Of wishing everyone dear to you would be here and actually succeeding to do that. 

   Dear diary, I'm in heaven and I will never forget this beautiful summery dream. My first step as a teacher in a camp... from many other steps to come:) 

Blissful,

D.