Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Walking on sunshine


Dear diary,

   Today I remembered how awesome it feels to be high on serotonin. I've been born again once I went out and saw the sun shining over the trees, breathed in the crisp air, listened to the birds chirp and rode the bus on French jazzy notes. 
   I felt like a tourist. The city looked completely different in that beautiful afternoon light, so beautiful that I decided to leave my book aside for some minutes and just enjoy the view. I kept smiling. I smiled at buildings, at a little girl who smiled back at me, at the dog in the bus station while petting him, at my mom who greeted me:) I kept smiling for the rest of the day while cooking for my family and I'm smiling even now while the sun is sound asleep.
   I missed the sun. So much. It made me realize that every day that's not sunny is  yet another day in which we gotta keep holding on until the sun is out. I don't know about others, but the whole world seems different to me when my sunny friend is out for a walk. 
   I missed walking carefreely, looking up and saying "Spring is in the air!" so now I'm happier than ever! Future looks bright already. Can't wait to see what's next!

Still smiling,
D.
   

Saturday, February 22, 2014

The Old Man


Dear diary,

   I saw the Old Man today. He was walking slowly, moving his cane every step he took. He stopped patiently at the red light and waited. It was funny seeing him so patient when I knew for sure he didn't like to wait for anything or anybody... but maybe today it was all different. Maybe he was indirectly showing us how we should act. He's an old man in the end, right? He's supposed to be wiser. And I'm sure he is.
   As I was watching him from the passing bus I found myself smiling. I thought that if he could make it, I will make it as well. I'll just follow his footsteps and take one small step at a time. I will get there in the end. And by the time I do I will be waiting patiently at the red light as well:)

Still young and restless,
D.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

The Spring within


   Dear diary,

   I realized that nobody is looking forward to the harsh, freezing Winter. Not this side of her, anyway. 
   We're all afraid that at some point we'll have to go out in the cold and endure our soul freezing. So we stay cozy indoors as much as possible while looking forward to meeting the mild, beautiful sister that Spring is. Just that sometimes Winter doesn't wanna leave and we have to brace ourselves and accept her in our lives as long as she wants to stay. 
   At first it's dreadful cos you just want her to go away and you want sunny, mellow days when you can wander around the city carefreely. Then you try to understand that you can't control everything and it takes a while until you fully let go and take life as it comes. But in the end you do and that's exactly when Spring arrives. New beginnings are just around the corner when you're ready for them. Until then, you're gonna have to live through the longest Winter there is. But eventually we all prevail and those sunny days come bringing snowdrops to light up our face. 

   Spring is gonna come in the end. If it's not coming, then it's not the end. 

Love,
Serene D.


Thursday, February 6, 2014

Loading adulthood


   Dear diary,

   Sometimes I wish I could understand everything that's happening to me. I know it all has a reason, but I don't know THE reason. Life seems so complicated lately. Being an adult involves a lot of serious long term decisions that you need to take not knowing where they lead you. 
   They say you should take every day as it comes and I'm trying to do that but unlike all the previous years 2014 is definitely gonna make it or break it. Full of important life changing events that will outline my future path, it surely puts a lot of pressure on my shoulders. 
   I don't know about others, but I tend to feel kinda lost lately. Yeah, I know who I am and what I like, but I don't know what's gonna happen next. Who does, anyway? 
   So here's to an interesting 2014 that I'm certainly looking forward to experience! I'm sure life will continue to give me unexpected gifts exactly when I need them the most. 
 
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D.