My merry little Christmas

Dear diary,

   This year's Christmas was wonderful. I was always surrounded by family, friends and loved ones, we went caroling, we walked and picked mistletoe, we shared delicious food and we caught up, we played games, we watched movies, I saw people I haven't seen in a long time, I did things I used to do when I was a little girl. It felt really good to go back to the basics and to feel so much love around me. I didn't do all this because I HAD TO, I didn't eat too much, I didn't do stuff everybody does, I did things that would bring me happiness and that would make the ones around me happy as well. 

   I'm still in the Christmas mood, there are still friends to visit, stories to share and laughter and games and another week of holiday. And then, we're slowly entering the new wonderful year of 2015, the year when I move out, when I will meet my future in laws, when I'll travel to Canada (and hopefully to the Czech Republic) and so much more. There's a wedding to plan and a whole beautiful adventure in between. 

   I'm really looking forward to the new year! But until then, I'm still enjoying the holiday.

Relaxed,

D.

P.S. I'll write the 2014 review when the time is right ;)

P.P.S. This year's Christmas tree accomplished every dream I've ever had *very very happy and proud*

Think happy thoughts

Dear diary,

   I'm a perfectionist. So I worry a lot. Sometimes I think that maybe things won't go as planned and I envision a posible bad outcome believing that this way I would be prepared for whatever comes. "Always be prepared for the bad things", my dad said. But in all my worry and irrational thinking I forget how important and life changing happy thoughts are. How just by envisioning a positive outcome, I already bring it closer. 

   I won't lie, it's difficult to try to think positive no matter what especially when you've been brought up a certain way. But I know kids do it all the time. If they can wake up every morning with a smile on their face forgetting about yesterday, why can't we? What I love about kids the most is how, because of their still developing brain, they can't think too far ahead. And boy, does that help. They focus on here and now and that's all they know. They do learn from their mistakes, but they can't plan for the long term future. So unless they really miss their mommy or some friend doesn't want to play with them, they don't worry. How amazing that is! 

   Because of the society we live in and because of all the accumulated negative emotional baggage we always seem to carry with us we step forward with fear and we lose touch with the inner child and the positive thoughts we can have. But the good thing is that we can teach our brain to focus on different things than it's used to. We, unlike kids, can solve problems so much easier and sometimes just by re-directing our thoughts. Isn't that amazing?

   So today I'm thinking happy thoughts even if the weather outside is kind of sad. I know I can bring the sun on the cloudy sky by drawing it in my mind. Because people are THAT powerful :)

Happy,

D.