Day 342. Seems like forever

   Time flies. Then it suddenly stops and for a while it forgets to move on because you found something that makes you happy and it doesn't want to steal it from you. After some time It tries to step carefully ahead, as slowly as possible, to let you linger on your moment of happiness. Then it moves on naturally on its path and sometimes you both go hand in hand with it. You and your inner happiness:) 

   It's 4 years now since our beautiful love story began somewhere near a lake on a summer night. And it's still growing, just like a child. We'll continue to raise our love the way it raised us until now: with honestly, trust, communication and generosity. The beautiful thing is that we didn't have to try a tad bit to make it what it is today. It all came naturally like it was there since the beginning of times and we just had to meet at the right time and in the right place. I always felt it was like that. And even if it's been mostly sunny around us, we learned to stay cuddled up under an umbrella each time there was a stormy weather around. 

   Look at us now!:) We're 4. I can't imagine sharing my life with anybody else. And I can't wait to see what lays ahead. Because I know that with him by my side, I can face anything. And I'll do that knowing that whatever happens he will be my shoulder to cry on, my right arm, my everything:) 

I love you, honey!

Day 341. Forever happy

   Today I went out with an old friend to catch up. It's always awesome to see that some friends never fade away even if you don't talk to each other in a long while:) 

   The conclusions we both came to are that sometimes you can be mediocre in a place, but a star in another; that unfortunately nobody is irreplaceable but that shouldn't make you hopeless. Instead you should look harder until you find a suitable option for you. And whenever that moment happens you ought to stick to it real hard and not let anyone take it from you. Fight for it and never let it go because that's what makes you happy. 

   We realized that parents will always think they know better but that they often get lost in a conventional way of seeing life, a protective way, but not one that's up to nowadays reality. 

   In the end what matters in life is going for what you want and defending your right to be happy. Because real happiness is worth fighting for and nobody can take it away from you if you don't let them:)

Day 340. The dark at the end of the tunnel

   We grow up always asking questions. When we're babies we want to know all the object names, then when we're kids we start asking "Why?" every 2 minutes. When we're teens we ask "Who am I?" and when we're adults we get all metaphysical and we start questioning the purpose of life and death. I'm there. 

   I had this talk to myself again tonight and I still didn't get an answer. I never do, but I keep asking because I want to know: "Why do young people have to die?" Why kids? Why teens? I get old people dying but youngsters are supposed to have their whole life ahead. What's the purpose of all this? I'm tired of always getting the "they have to teach the others a lesson" type of answer. I just don't get it. 

   Some get sick and others commit suicide. Why do they go through all this? The worst part is that no matter how hard we try to help them, they just go. 

Day 339. That weird feeling

   Today I had that weird feeling again. Supermarkets are ready for school so they're promoting school supplies now. So every time I go in a supermarket these days I run into them. 

  The weird feeling comes from seeing the amazing variety of schoolbags, notebooks, pencil cases and other things pupils need for school. They all make me melancholic. Back in my time we didn't have all these amazing school supplies. Many times we didn't even have cool options to choose from so I kinda envy pupils and it makes me miss being in school. But then I remember I had a happy childhood and a happy adolescence still, even without having so many cool things. So I guess that's what counts in the end: traveling through life in a constant state of happiness and looking ahead with hope knowing you made peace with your past. And how does that happen?

Day 338. Beautiful people, beautiful places

   I love visiting cities. I always did. But today I rediscovered how awesome the countryside life is:) 

   It was one of those special days when you meet beautiful people and beautiful places that fill you up with joy. I felt peace. That kind of peace that makes you say "This right here is perfect. Thank you, God! I love my life.":) 

   Away from all the technology we're surrounded by every day, I understood why everybody wants to leave the city at some point. I found bits and pieces that I didn't see back in the city. That smile all the people have there, their kindness and their generosity, their happiness when talking about life and their optimism coming from doing what they love. They don't need the city and all it involves. They're already happy:) I truly admire them.

    I felt at home. Even more, I felt in heaven:) I feel so blessed to be able to live all these things and write about them. I'm sure difficult times will come too but then I will look back to all of these and I will remember what I need to be happy: a place like Sibiel:)

Day 337. Live life fully!

   Mmm... how shall I put it? Tonight was the best night of my life! And it was all due to Within Temptation. I know it sounds big but it's true:)

   I always loved the band. I loved the guys so much I was sad when I found out they previously came to Romania and I didn't know. So given the fact they came here years ago, them coming back to our little country and going to a concert of theirs here seemed like a dream that would never come true for me. Little did I know:) 

   When I found out they were to come to ARTmania festival this year I was thrilled! I knew it was going to be the best time of had high expectations regarding the concert but I didn't know it was going to be EPIC!!! I never head banged to a concert before but this time it just felt right. For more than an hour and a half I got lost in a deep feeling of ecstasy surrounded by people who felt what I felt. And we were all caught up in a sea of intensely living the moment. It was going to be a movie moment we'd all remember our whole life:) 

   At some point during the concert I just stopped. I looked around and I told to myself: "This is how life should be. We should live fully and stop thinking about the money. We should go to concerts and make awesome memories that stick with us forever."

   I don't know what the best night of your life was, but I know this was mine:) And I lived it fully:)

Day 336. Let's shake the dust

   The day before a long awaited trip is always full of emotions both good and bad. On one hand you're filled with enthusiasm, you can't wait for time to pass more quickly and you're making plans in your head about how awesome the trip is going to be, but on the other hand you're anxious because you feel there's too little time to organize everything so you're afraid you'll forget something or you think that maybe you won't wake up when the alarm clock will ring. And that's exactly what's awesome about trips:) Oh, not to mention you'll probably not sleep the night before. It always happens to me:)

   Long awaited trips make life worth living. They put a huuuge smile on your face and make you happy even before reaching your destination because you already know you'll come home with some amazing memories you'll hold onto for the whole year to come and that they will be the ones to give you energy until the next awesome trip. 

   Tomorrow I'm heading for Sibiu to attend one of the most awaited concerts of my life (Within Temptation). I can't wait to feel like heaven is a place on earth again:)