Day 360. New beginnings

   Today I had an awkward day. Not because something necessarily happened, but because it was my last day of summer vacation. And I had this weird feeling associated to hours passing and bringing me closer and closer to a new beginning. Cos I don't really do beginnings. You know, it takes me a while till I get used to the idea of it. 

   What's even weirder is that I'm going back to the same workplace I had last year so I should feel comfortable, right? Instead, I had this dreading feeling of leaving behind the carefree, convenient schedule I had all summer and going back to obeying adult life rules again. That feeling we all have after any holiday:) 

   The good thing is that we're getting used to anything that's new and we surpass that fear of not being able to control everything because we remember that we can deal with whatever comes. With or without help. We're not alone in the world and even if, our brain is a problem solver anyhow. 

   So I'll be fine. I just have to get used to the idea of waking up early again and focus on the positive side of everything: in the end I'm going back to my dream job:) What can be better than that?  

Day 342. Seems like forever

   Time flies. Then it suddenly stops and for a while it forgets to move on because you found something that makes you happy and it doesn't want to steal it from you. After some time It tries to step carefully ahead, as slowly as possible, to let you linger on your moment of happiness. Then it moves on naturally on its path and sometimes you both go hand in hand with it. You and your inner happiness:) 

   It's 4 years now since our beautiful love story began somewhere near a lake on a summer night. And it's still growing, just like a child. We'll continue to raise our love the way it raised us until now: with honestly, trust, communication and generosity. The beautiful thing is that we didn't have to try a tad bit to make it what it is today. It all came naturally like it was there since the beginning of times and we just had to meet at the right time and in the right place. I always felt it was like that. And even if it's been mostly sunny around us, we learned to stay cuddled up under an umbrella each time there was a stormy weather around. 

   Look at us now!:) We're 4. I can't imagine sharing my life with anybody else. And I can't wait to see what lays ahead. Because I know that with him by my side, I can face anything. And I'll do that knowing that whatever happens he will be my shoulder to cry on, my right arm, my everything:) 

I love you, honey!

Day 269. How it grows

   Today I was fascinated by some hot peppers my dad is growing. They were once sooo little and you could barely see a little green leaf and now they're growing strong and healthy. 

   Friendships are just like growing a plant. At first you need to be really careful. Maybe you'd say that's not necessary. That friendships are exactly the place to be yourself because friends accept you for who you are. Yeah, you're right, but until getting there you have to see if you and your friend match. If you have the same interests, values, goals. If it's going to be a friendship for a day, a week, a month or a lifetime:) And it's not even enough if you like your friend. He/She has to like you back. You have to be accepted. Friendships sound rather complicated now, don't they?

   Taking friendships from the beginning isn't something you usually do at my age. And yet I'm doing it. Because it's so fascinating and awesome that I can't help myself. So here I am going through the nervousness of a teenager who wants to be accepted and liked for who he truly is. Will I succeed? We shall see:)

Day 5. Towards the light

   We are in the dark at the beginning of the road but little by little the light reveals itself and we take another shy step towards it. Of course we need help and patience but in the end knowledge will be gained and never lost. I gained knowledge today. I hope my road towards the light will be just as smooth from now on:)