Day 336. Let's shake the dust

   The day before a long awaited trip is always full of emotions both good and bad. On one hand you're filled with enthusiasm, you can't wait for time to pass more quickly and you're making plans in your head about how awesome the trip is going to be, but on the other hand you're anxious because you feel there's too little time to organize everything so you're afraid you'll forget something or you think that maybe you won't wake up when the alarm clock will ring. And that's exactly what's awesome about trips:) Oh, not to mention you'll probably not sleep the night before. It always happens to me:)

   Long awaited trips make life worth living. They put a huuuge smile on your face and make you happy even before reaching your destination because you already know you'll come home with some amazing memories you'll hold onto for the whole year to come and that they will be the ones to give you energy until the next awesome trip. 

   Tomorrow I'm heading for Sibiu to attend one of the most awaited concerts of my life (Within Temptation). I can't wait to feel like heaven is a place on earth again:) 

Day 312. The ultimate gift

   There are a loooot of movies out there: the bad ones you regret having watched, the ones perfect for a boring Sunday afternoon, those that are half bad and half good and you don't know if you like them or not, the ones that are pretty good but the subject might be somewhat overused and then... there are the ones that just leave you breathless. The cornerstones. The ones that sweep you off your feet. Those that take you by the hand and by the time you realized what happened you're already living life alongside with the characters, experience intense emotions with them, laugh and cry and learn. Learn a lot of things. Learn that the mere fact of you having been born is important. 

   "The ultimate gift" is one of the cornerstones. The kind of movie you're glad you're alive to have seen it. The kind that changes your life forever and reminds you how important it is to LIVE life. Enjoy every bit of it. Leave behind all the unnecessary baggage you're dragging with you daily and finally wake up and see what's Important. The kind of movie everybody should see. So if you haven't seen it by now, just go and do it. I promise you won't regret it:)

"Neither love, nor hate thy life; but what thou livest, live well; however long or short may the heavens permit."

Day 296. Rain aftermath

   Isn't life a continuous sequence of sun and rain? Interestingly, the sun always shines after the rain. No matter how furious the storm, how many problems it causes or how many problems you cause yourself. 

   Story of my life:

   So the storm and I mingled today and we elaborated more problems than we should have. 

   And now that the sun rose I'm trying to figure out which are the real ones and which I have invented and after I'll be done with it the night will come and tomorrow will be another perfect day for making up other problems. It's what I'm best at... And I hate it.

   I wish it would just stop and I could turn off my emotions whenever I feel like. Can I do that? Pleaaaaase?

Day 259. Beyond the rain

   It's been raining on and off these days. And it wouldn't even be as annoying if it wasn't for the gloomy clouds and the sleepy mood everyone seems to be into. If it's sunny now, it will rain again in less than an hour. So it seems that Spring is back to being bipolar. And today we match. Actually, we're all like her. All the time. 

   We're fragile little beings that bend according to the wind. A simple word said at the wrong time or in the wrong way can shatter our whole world and yet, another one, can make us raise from the ashes. 

   Words mean everything to us. We're emotional beings and what we say is influenced by our thoughts and emotions. Our whole life is an EKG. Going up and down as the others talk to us and as we do our talking. And we're so influenced by the rain that our whole body goes to sleep wanting to avoid it. And the saddest part is that we're incapable of seeing beyond the rain. I, for one, no matter how much I try to make myself smile while rain is coming over me, I just can't. It's wrapping me in its gloom and it's telling me the saddest story I've ever heard. 

   So here I am, longing for the sun, for better times, for someone to teach me see beyond the rain:)

Day 222. Missing

   Today I tried to calm the waters I'm floating on and bring the sun in my boat. It rained instead. Then, someone held a helping hand and I took it. But in all this process, I was thinking about one thing: "How would it be if we wouldn't feel emotions anymore? If we could turn them down. How would life be then? Would it be better or worse? Would we get over bad situations more easily or would we transform into robots? What if it's both? How would it be?" 

   In my case believing in some abstract things helps me find a sense in everything that's happening, but sometimes those abstract things are just like that... abstract. And when I wake up and bump into the here and now reality I am frustrated, sad, hopeless and I am asking myself: "Do those abstract things matter anymore?... They do, because that's what gets me going. Hope. Pandora's little secret."

Day 202. The strong movies

   ... are just like a good book:) They sweep you off your feet only to put you down in the characters' shoes. So, in the end you totally forget who you are. You will no longer be yourself. Instead, you'll be that man who just killed a boy, his lover and the dead boy's family altogether. You will be so caught up in it that you won't feel the need to eat, drink or think about ANYTHING else that will be going on in your life right then. My friends and I went to the cinema to watch a Romanian awarded movie: "Poziția Copilului". It surely was a strong one since it made me feel all the above. 

   And yet again it's really interesting how a simple movie can tackle the right parts in you in order to make you feel emotions, relate, feel empathy and live everything WITH the people in the movie:) Rare, yet beautiful. So beautiful that this movie reminded me I need to broaden my horizons and watch something else than just American movies:) In the end, awesome scenarios are everywhere:)