Day 301. All by myself

   We fly in flocks and we're born to do it, but in some cases there comes a moment when we need to figure out if we chose the right flock. Because lately the birds aren't flying next to us, but next to any other bird in the flock. And we're the ones being left behind, the ones who try to understand how that happened and always find an unrealistic explanation for it. Then is when we need to figure it out: was that flock the right one for us or did we just want to belong to it more than we actually did? 

   We all know we shouldn't change for others so we just have to admit that it's the wrong time and the wrong place for us to be. In the end all that's left is understanding that...

   Moving on solo until we find the right flock. That's right. The one that will want us there as much as we want it. Until then, breathe in, breathe out and hope. 

Day 250. Left behind

   These days I've been running around like a headless chicken. It's the registration period for the teachers' annual exam and just like every year, nobody seems to know exactly what documents we need in the file we register with. So we all run around and try to solve this issue the best we can. 

   I guess it's a general trait for Romania. You thought the US is the country of all possibilities, huh? Well guess what! Romania surely surpasses the US! Here you never really know what lies ahead of you. Nobody tells you how to study during school, if the university you want to attend is useful or not and which are the odds of being hired after graduating. Nobody tells you how to search for a job or how to do your job, they just want it done by the deadline. Of course, they say you can ask and you shall been given answers, but we weren't raised like this. 

   The system teaches us to swallow a lot of information that teachers give us and take it for granted, so when we graduate highschool we feel like we're left behind. No critical thinking, no perspectives, no nothing. So that's when we wake up from the childhood dream and we realize we're grown up chicks that have to fly. But where to? And then we start asking around, just like socials being we are. And answers are given. 

Day 67. The road is long

   Sometimes all we want to say is "It's too much." Some situations exceede our knowledge and we're left behind with no idea how to get out of there. Well, it's a long way to wisdom and experience helps a lot. You can't pretend to know it all from the beginning, even if you have theoretical knowledge of how things should work. It's no rule it will. 

   What we could do is get out of the self pity mood we're in and try to solve the situation without complaining. Complaining doesn't help. It just gets you stuck there. So, get up and look for answers. You'll be amazed to find out that many times the answer is within you.