Inspired

Dear diary,

   I finally figured it out. I'm not going cuckoo, I'm not bipolar and I'm not regressing to childhood. Nope. I'm INSPIRED by autumn. It's the multitude of colors, shades and the incredible light that inspires me to create. This autumn's been milder than others and its warm, sunny days and all the colorful leaves set me into the right mood for being artsie:) As a matter of fact, I surely not intend to stop here. I'm looking forward for November and I hope it'll be as sweet as in the movie:) 

   No wise saying today. I just want to enjoy this beautiful autumn while it lasts. (You and I both know how much I can't wait to go binge shopping for Christmas balls :D Today I counted the ones I have by now. Two more weeks till Christmas will start being all over the shops. Weeeeeeeeee!)

In love (with autumn),

D.

P.S. Here's my last creation :)

The clean up

   You wake up and you look outside only to see it's cloudy again... A lot of free time on your hands. You're not in the mood to drag your body out of your bed yet so you just linger there and you start contemplating life. Yeah, unlike others, you can just sit in bed and think. You get to the conclusion that the best way to spend this Saturday is to clean up. Autumn is the perfect time for that. 

   You start with things on your phone. A lot of notes of movies you have to see, random thoughts and useless data. You have breakfast and then you start hiding your summery clothes and bringing up the autumn ones. Next. Papers on your desk. So many of them piled up over the last months. And you have no idea how that happened. You stop for a second and realize you're moving slower and slower. You're one with the gloomy weather now. 

   There's something bothering you but you can't really put your finger on it. It's like the dreadful side of autumn got under your skin and now it's controlling your body. You gently take a paper, read it and throw it next to you. You repeat the process until you're surrounded by a big pile of "leaves". You soon cleaned all the trees around you and now the leaves are down there covering the floor with memories you made along the way. Things you'll throw away because you no longer need. 

   Your trees will get new memories next spring. But you'll throw some of them next autumn and the thought of that somehow makes you sad. You'd love to keep all the memories you gathered, all the feelings you invested in. But you know life's not an endless summer. You have to focus and take decisions. What will you throw out? Will you keep things just in case you might need them sometime or will you throw out anything you didn't use in the last month? 

   If it was up to you, you'd keep all the leaves until you had a sea of them in your room. And then you'd float on your own sea of leaves until you got lost in the distance while contemplating life. You'd later wake up on your bed on a sunny autumn day and everything would be perfect again:)

   

Day 170. Let it spring

Dear diary,

   

    Today I was eagerly waiting to go meet her. I wasn't sure she would be waiting for me, but she sent me some signs these past days so I kept my hopes up:) The city is not hers yet so I went to the forest and started looking for her between the trees, through the dead leaves, in the air, everywhere. I was patient enough and after some time I did. I found her. She was very shy, well hidden and barely wanting to be discovered, but there she was: in the snowdrop buds showing up through the leaves, in the sun shining warmly, in the smiles of relaxed people. 

   Winter's gone. Or at least she has her luggage done. So I took Spring by the hand and I welcomed her. I hugged her dearly and I told her I'm going to take care of her from now on. Try to keep her happy. We all like sunny days, don't we? 

   I even had a room make-over at home. I put away all the wintery stuff and made place for touches of spring. And snowdrops are now my most precious jewelry. There they stand as I'm writing to you:) They're smiling at me because we both know I'll be born again this spring. 

   I can't wait for her arrival in the city, to walk with her and catch up just like old friends do:) ... I feel like a teenager... Maybe that's the effect she has on me and I'm willing to accept it as a part of who I am because every time she's around I'm being myself again:) So let it spring!:)

Love,

D.

Day 65. Pay it forward

   Today I realized I want to help. More than I usually do. I don't have big plans. I just want to make a difference. Christmas is approaching and I love being Santa. I want to make people happy:) 

   I know I should start with myself first. So I decided I want to be happy. I wish to be like a tree in autumn. Leave my rotten leaves behind and move on. Be better. Shine. And change the world I'm in. I want to pay it forward and so should you. It turns around when you least expect and when you need it the most:) 

So let's help. Let's look around and give a bit of ourselves to people in need. 

Day 46. Dear October

    I love love love your special blankets made of leaves!:) They make me smile every morning and it's not because they're silly or funny but because I know how much you struggle to make them as perfect as they look:) 

   I also know you love sunshine as much as I do. I would love to see more of that sunshine until it's too late and your sister November comes around. I don't even know why they call her "sweet" cos she isn't. I can totally foresee it. Lots of rain, cold weather and the desire to always stay indoors. 

   So, could we keep the blankets and the sunshine around as much as we can so I can be happy every morning?:)

Love,

Dana

Day 12. About people and leaves

   Even if we are all like leaves floating on a river towards The Unknown, it's always worth it to fight for what we are and for what we want. I know the river isn't calm from time to time, but we can't give up. We have to keep on fighting.