Day 347. Get ready, set, go!

   Today I was reminded that summer is not all about having fun and making nice memories. It's also about preparing for the winter to come. And this involves a lot of work and sweat. My dad told me that "if you want to be happy during winter, you gotta work a lot during summer." And so we did. 

   Preserving vegetables for winter is a tough process that seems never ending. Especially if you're part of a family who eats a lot during winter. It was certainly another test for my patience. I might have lost a battle or two, but I think I won the war.

   My lesson after all this is that even if you don't like some things, they gotta be done. And working now means happiness after. So it's better to be the ant than the grasshopper. Always.

Day 119. To know or not to know

   ... THAT is the question! I saw "Now is good" today. It was about a girl who was going to die because of leukemia and as you would expect she had a list of things she wanted to do before dying. As I watched the movie I thought: "Would it be better to know that you're going to die or would it be better for it to happen so fast that you don't acknowledge it?" Up until today I thought I wanted to know. It was all about having time to prepare myself and the others and do all the things I wanted to but never had time/guts/money. But after seeing this movie and all the pain knowing involves, I don't know if I want to know anymore. I don't think I want to do all the things from a list I'd make and then, at the end of every day that brings me closer to the end, realize the ending and cry to sleep. I think this movie changed me and it wan't even an excellent one. It just made me realize I want something else. By now I did everything I dreamed to do, my people know me and I tell them I love them very often, I am at peace with myself and the world... so I'd rather not know. If I knew, I'd have to struggle, to fight for life and I'm not sure I can. I'm not sure I have enough power inside me. So it's better if I don't know or feel it coming... though maybe in some years I will change my mind:)