Day 364. The gardener

   Some people around me are like delicate rosebuds during winter. If they haven't got a gardener to take care of them, they will never bloom. 

   They need someone to believe in them, someone to acknowledge and encourage their potential. They are great people with self esteem issues. And maybe a messed up background. But they are great nevertheless. And I believe in them. 

   I don't want to walk away knowing I didn't do anything for them. I want to be there to tend them and surround them with my love and affection. I want to fight along with them and go through harsh weather, blood, sweat and tears all along. And one day when the sun will shine again and they will bloom, I want to be there and share that special moment with them. 

   Yes, I'm a gardener, someone who'd rather got stung by thorns than live an idle life sleeping under a tree. I couldn't be any other way even if I tried:)

Day 211. Blood, sweat and tears

   Some people have it in them. They feel the urge and they can't resist it. They take the opportunity thinking that they'll help others this way. But in the end, it's all going to be just blood, sweat and tears until they learn their decision wasn't the best one. But what can you do when you feel the need to be a leader? It's in you. You can fight it, but you can't deny it. And you'll shortly notice you can't standby. 

   Today I found out what being a leader really involves. Leading a whole kindergarten brings up a lot of responsibilities, being blamed any time something goes wrong and being pulled and pushed in every direction possible just because you're in charge. It takes a lot of stress, weight loss and irrational thinking because you care. Because you want to make the world a better place and rule fairly. You only want them to be happy and all they feel is envy. Why be a leader then? Why take all the blame for people who don't know how to solve their own problems? Why try to make the world a better place when other people only try to make it work for themselves in order to have a comfy life? 

   The negative outcomes certainly surpass the positive ones, but you go to sleep at night telling yourself that you don't want to let a tyrant destroy everything you built. So you sacrifice yourself and take it all with the thought that there are innocent people who will suffer more if you give up. Therefore, you accept the role and move on hoping. Hoping that one day you will succeed in making the world a better place:)