365 days project 2: Day 10. Learn from your mistakes

   Mistakes. We make them daily. We hurt people without wanting, we wake up in the middle of a fight we didn't look for and we want to solve it but we can't because we are told we can't undo what we did. And that hurts us as much as it hurts them because not a single second did we think that our actions can have such wild consequences.

   People choose to feel hurt, to be victims. Sometimes no matter how much you try to explain the rational reason behind your action they won't accept it. So you let them be and you learn from your mistakes, what you did wrong to hurt them. You decide you'll be paying more attention next time because in the end some people are more sensitive than others even if they don't seem like it.

Day 274. The wrong people

   Sometimes we give things to the wrong people and it all turns out to be a mess. Because they don't appreciate them and our efforts are in vain. And then we suffer.

   I'm not talking about friends. Friends know how to take things, they know the message beyond the gesture, I'm talking about newbies. People you barely know and you want to bond with. People you grow to care about. 
   Maybe that's our mistake. We don't analyse people before we give. Be it trust, a gift or a secret. 

   So open your eyes and think ahead. It's that simple.

   

Day 253. Looking back

   Today I realized that sometimes facing or simply thinking about our past brings up sadness. 

   It's all about the unresolved issues with ourselves or with the others. That's why we often try to avoid the unsettling past and find distractions to direct us to the future. And it's only natural if you think that it wasn't always our fault that things ended the way they did. The worst part is when you know you can't do anything to make peace with that person and just move on being at peace with yourself. In this situation you don't have many options. 

   So even if all the ride home I was sad about some mistake I've done in the past, I now know that as much as I'd want to I can't do anything to undo it. Thus, I'm redirecting my attention towards the bright present and the bright future. Because in the end "it's okay to make mistakes. Mistakes are our friends -- they help us to grow."

Day 235. What if

   What if the wind blew and took the dandelion's life away? What if the sun didn't rise one morning to make leaves grow? ... What if that girl lied to her mother and that woman would start the biggest argument in centuries based on something not accurate and then I would be the one to blame for starting everything? What if that doesn't happen and I can lay my head at night knowing that I made a mistake AGAIN and I learned from it? 

   I can't go on like this. My head will be shred to pieces. And my psychological balance won't be balanced anymore... That's what happens when you have to work with the brain. You get to THINK TOO MUCH. 
   After hours of ruminating about something that happened today I decided to face whatever comes WHEN it happens. I have to somehow stop and turn off my tendency to go too deep into things. I have to stop living on the "what ifs" planet and travel back to a reassuring bubble where everything can be solved... sooner or later. 

"There's no problem. Only solutions."